Complicatedlove

2008-10-04T14:04:00.002+08:00

haiz so stress sia nw exam period. dunno y want to slp lyk veri tired sian siol. i wish exam can faster finish sia so stressfull. still gt 7paper 4subject. nexgt monday to wednesday gt paper dam stress. monday is the worse day cos got 3 paper. social studies poa n chem ss n chem is my worse subject lucky poa i am good at it so no worries. hehes dhis few days nth to do den slp how i wish i can go relax n pla lar. nvm lars i have to jian chi dao di n must pass all my subjects. i must JIAYOUS!! hehes my chinese ting li got highest in class dam shock lar but i am dam happi. i oso pass my chinese paper2 n english paper2. k dun wan blog lers wan go study lers.

2008-09-25T14:37:00.002+08:00

haiz y must life get so tough sumtimes? wad ish happening between mi n him i really dunno wad can do he tinks tat i lyk other guys but the turth is tat i dun lk anyone except for him but since he doesnt believe mi wad can i do dhere is really veri little i can do to make him believe mi. nw he is lyk asking to be prepared for wad i dun understand i really dunno y he lyk dun believe mi lar in a r/s dhere shud have mutal trust n shud not supect each other lars.i really dunno y am i always the one to cry n be the one to sae sorry i dun understand y its not even my fault but wad else can i do i hope he will understand ba one day.if the msg tat says i tink u better be prepared means ta he wants to brk den wad else can i do i have already done my part n try to solve things but he still tinks its my fault i dunno lar i am really ver tired lers no more strength to quarrel lers.from the start of dhis r/s on 14.05.08 all i wanted from him was to love mi care for mi n be dhere for mi when i need him but i guess he cant do it ba not all guys can do it i can understand but i only wanted him to gimme mi a couple ring i really he will noe it but seems lyk 3months later he still dunno wad i wanted from him i guess we r really not fated to last long but i really have veri good momeries wif him n able to spent time wif him. thank you for the 3months of happiness yopu haave given mi. cant blog any longer gt to study.

2008-08-31T13:53:00.002+08:00

baby i noe you angry wif yourself but u dun have to do tat to yourself do you by hitting the wall can solve the problem den i will rather i do tat but it can solve anything.do you tink i see your hand injured i will not xin tong de ar i see le i will be more sad lar n wad has happened tat dae its not your fault understand.n i dun blame you for not replying my msg on friday cos i noe tat you playing wif your frens so i nv sae anything den y blame yourself.haiya i really dunno wad to sae to you le let mi cool down first kays when i cool down le i will reply your msg de.i hope you will understand.

haiz i dunno wad ish happening to mi i really fee veri stressed up dunno wad shud i do le. i hope everyting will be fine afterdhis 1week holiday ba.i in dhis week dun wan tink abt anything le i wan to study hard for end of year exam le i dun wan to retain i wan go sec4.haiz i dunno wad to sae lers blog again ba i hope everyting will be okay. n i also wan wish my baobei a happy birthday.

2008-08-30T16:14:00.002+08:00

sigh i tink i really have to end dhis r/s lers. i tink time can heal all pain ba. haiz he haven msg or call mi. i dunno wad ish happening to us last nite i msg him happy birthday msg at 12am but he only 1220 den reply mi i guess his frens are more important den mi ba i tot he have change but he have not change at all i guess dhis is all fated ba.haiz dunno lar
i only noe tat nw my frens are more important to mi nth elae matters now. i really have to study veri hard too cos i must gain back my freedom i dun wan to be a bird in a cage. i wan my freedom back i dun wan to ba lyk a bird.dunno wad to say lers another time den blog ba.

2008-08-29T13:16:00.002+08:00

hehes now i noe i've got many good friends around mi. who will care for me n to be dhere for mii when i need them by myside. loves my good friends!!!!
<33Amber,Cheryl,Dionis,Eileen,Faye,Meimei,Tiffany,Yijie.
thank you dionis , tiffany n yijie for entertaining during POA lesson.
i really will cherish you gals as my friend.
i jus feel lyk i am the luckiest gal becos i have so many good friends.
i wont tink too much lers dun worry i will try to be more cheerfull now dun wan tink too much jus live everyday happily.hope you ppl will cherish wad you have or all your close friends around you.
dunno wad to blog lers blog tmr den blog ba (if can).

2008-08-28T15:31:00.003+08:00

back to blog lers but i m not veri happy or in a good mood today i m really der angry wif my mother!!she dam came to she dunno is it tat mr tay call her cum or wad lar. i really hate mr tay for calling my mother ystd lar he lyk dam complain tat i always nv tie my hair den make mi cut hair. fucked up lar my hair so diffcult to grow tat long den must cut off dam dulan lar. i almost cry lar but i contro lmyself not to cry. sobsob lors my hair nw so short sadded. i hate my mother also lar she dam fucking slap mi in sch today infront of him n others n said he is not worth it cos he dont dare walk out to protect mi from geeting slap from her. haiz i jus feel tat all dhis tat ish happening is jus too fast i really dunno wad to do i feel lyk ending but i cant possible let go cos i really dun wan let go but i am afraid tat tings will get worse. how? wad shud i do? can sum1 tell mi. thank you DIONIS TIFFANY n YIJIE for comforting mi after wad happen jus nw. thank you gals. dionis dun tink too much jus do wad you wan follow your feelings. yijie wish you last long wif zhanrong. tiffany dun everytime emo ler kays everyting will alright ders.no matter how much you tink abt it nth will change the fact n its all the truth. any way your birthday ish cuming lers try be happy till your birthday kays dun wan see you sad anymore kays. dun wan blog lers.

2008-08-15T22:25:00.002+08:00

haiz i really dunnoi wad shud i do i am really veri tired lers.who can come tell mi wad shud i do.i today nv tok to him at all the whole day in sch.i was not feeling well dhis few days cos i gt cold but who cares nobody cares if i am ok anot only my didi n some close friends he didnt even ask mi if i ok anot or wad he jus noe how to pla pla pla didnt even give a dam to mi. i dunno if i had made the rite choice tat time but i dun ask for more ba jusbe happy wif wad you have.haiz i dun wan blog le lar veri tired wan go rest le eat medicine veri sleepy lers.

2008-08-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

haiz how cum my life got so much problem. y cant i have a happy family y must all dhis happen to mi i already veri stress lers. i really wan leave but i cannot leave my mother cos she really need mi n my sister now.haiz dun tok abt it lers. anyway i have made my choice lers i have given his the answer lers but i feel tat he still wont wan to give up.haiz anyway since we cant be a couple we still can be frens ba i tink its ok for you ba.anyway gtg lers goin to slp tired of wadeva have happened today.

2008-08-05T15:53:00.009+08:00

haiz i dunno wad the hell is happening now i am dam stress now. i really dunno wad shud i do.i dunno y he suddenly tell mi tat he wan give up i dun understand i really cannot understand y.its not tat i dun wan tell you the answer but i really cannot make my decision but if you really wan give up i really wont force you cos i noe tat r/s cannot be forced cos if i force you not tu give up you will not be happy even if we r together. no matter wad i will respect your decision de.
2more days...i need to give him a answer i really dunno if i shud say yes or no to you. i noe tat if i choose any of you 1 of you will have to suffer but i really dun wan any of you to suffer cos 1 of you be emo n the other will keep injuring himself jus to get over wif the pain in his heart i really dun wish to see any of them lyk dhis but wad can i do i really dun i guess the best is for mi to dissappear from the both of your lives. for him i cannot dun see him everyday cos we r in the same class but for him although we r from different class different lvl but we will still see each other during assembly or jus by walking around the school.wad shud i do i really dunno wad to do lers dam stress.can i choose none of them n be single is dhis the best choice.if by making dhis decision none will suffer i will be glad to make dhis decision but will it solve the problem?i really wish i didnt have to make the decision but i cant i have to. i will try to make the best choice by thursday. NUER sry jus nw shout at you i am sry no in a veri good mood dun blame mi sry sry sry sry sry sry sry.haiz dunno wad can i sae lers dun wanna blog lers.

2008-07-31T18:00:00.004+08:00

sian nth to do. toking to my didi on the phone ltr got tuition. jus nw went to bugis wif didi/buddy n vince go buy clothes.both of them bought a tie for their formal shirt didi bought white vince bought black. mi nv buy anything cos no money sadded lors. nvm tmr is my turn to buy lers i goin to buy my gothic clothes. white shirt n black skirt its more on the sweet site of gothic. looks nice but hope it will be ok ba. next friday wan pon sch den go out den sat go out again wif frens again i hope dun need to go home so early i wish 11plus den go home or wad lors. gtg lers need do homework lers.takecare.

2008-07-29T15:38:00.004+08:00

This morning i dont know y i will so emo lors.
Maybe becos i read his msg lers den feel dam emo i lyk no mood.
Lucky i got my angel didi he cheer mi up today.
Dhis morning be4 POA lesson i cried again.
I dun noe why my tears jus flow out without knowing.
My nuer read the msg n knew how i feel den she try her best to cheer mi up.
I am so lucky to have My nuer n my angel didi.
Oh ya cannot forget yeeboon oso got cheer mi today.
Haiz dun tok abt wad happen lers.
Anyway sry yeeboon for hitting your injured hand today hope you not angry.
Thx boon didi n nuer for making mi so happy today.
I am really thankful to god to have you all by myside.
I hope wad be yourslf day or prom nite faster cum.
Cos i wan to noe if i wear gothic nice mah.
Angel didi so nice he say he pei mi wear gothic i dam happy lors cos i not alone.
Hahas i look nice in the shirt but dunno if wear the skirt nice anot.
But shud be not bad ba.
I lyk spend dam lots on the clothes lar but nvm its worth it.
Gtg lers having tuition lers.
Takecare everyone be cheerful.

2008-07-27T15:59:00.005+08:00

Haiz i really dunno wad to do.
Who can help mi although i noe wad answer.
Wad he wanted from mi but i jus cant give him the answer he wanted.
I am really sorry i really cant no matter how much time you gimme i still cant.
I really dunno if i shud accept you or patch with him or even stay single.
I really cannot make the decision i noe either 1 of us have to suffer.
But i really dun wan i rather i suffer than the 2 of them suffer becos of mi.
I noe tat dae you want mi to give you the answer but i really cant.
I have already tried my veri best to make the best decision.
I guess we only fated to be friends & not to be a couple.
Even if its lyk tat i a really happy.
& thankful to god tat have such a good friend like you.
Who is willing to do anything for a friend.
You have been dhere for mi when i needed a shoulder to cry on.
& a listening ear for mi. gtg lers no more blogging.

2008-07-23T18:46:00.016+08:00

Today in school dem dulan wif her.
I relli dunno wad she tinking abt.
When she have an quarrel wif her GOOD FREWNS.
Den she cum pei mi n yijie, whadd about now !
Today she ok wif her GOOD FREWNS lehhs.
She dont even care us, wad is dhis siaas.
Dun even treat mi n yijie as frens le.
She didnt even call us to pei her go toilet or wad all.
Her 2 GOOD FREWMS only.
Okaees dun wan blog le no mood n still veri dulan.

2008-07-20T19:10:00.016+08:00

Saturday, June19, 2008
In morning i did not do anything much but tink abt something. Tat includes 3 person mi him n him. I woke up at 8.30am & i jus lay on my bed tinking of wad shud i do. I was really confused & really stress of what shud i tell him. Athough i have spent only 13days wif him as a fren. I had a feeling for him but on the other hand i had spend 1month n 3weeks wif him. & until now i still cant forget him & the memories the days we spent together. By making the chioce ystd i really had i difficult time i was really stress. & did not know wad to do but all thx to my fren tiffany n shannon my brother. They told mi to follow my heart so i did & made the chioce i hope i wont regret making tat decision.

Sunday, June20, 2008
Is still the same old sunday. All i did was study & study. Hate it sia so boring dun lyk. Plus summore i am lyk studying physics the most boring subject to mi. Anyway nth much happen today. Hungry gonna eat lers. soooo long.
Blog again when free ba. dun miss mi.

2008-07-14T22:19:00.004+08:00

I'm really very sorry to him.
I really owe him a big apology.
I really thank him for doing so much things for me. I'm really very sorry for hurting him.
I feel very confused. My heart hurts very badly.
I really had a bad time making this choice.
It was very difficult, i hope that we still can remain as friends.
Although i know it will be very difficult for you.
Maybe we should give each other some time.
I'M REALLY VERY VERY SORRY !
I hope you will forgive me for making this choice.

2008-07-13T18:59:00.006+08:00

Finally did my blog again lers.
Old blog died lers so decided to do new one.
haha... I must not let my blog die again, i swear.
Need to keep on updating my blog. Jiayou :D
Slong time no blog dunno wad to sae lers must get used to it again den everyweek must blog.
Nvm i gtg lers wanna watch 'hellboy'.